August 18th, 2025

Today is a day where I have failed to really do anything. I need to get better about directing my focus in general, but today was kinda especially bad. I spent a lot of work just pouring over stuff for Satisfactory, and then I got home, and I just. Didn't play. There's a bunch of mostly small things that I need to do outside of the game but they all have to do with money so it just sorta makes a barrier of entry for me. It's not like I've had to deal with poverty but I have had to deal with the lesser issue of not having any of my own money (or I guess more specifically, my own income; I had like $4,000 going into college and the first two years were spent just draining that away) and it's just made me real anxious about anything to do with it. Plus I wanna worldbuild and write too but that obviously hasn't happened. Idk I just kinda feel like a bit of a mess today.