June 13th, 2023

Actually went out to the store with dad today. I think this was actually the first time I left the house since graduation, outside of eating out. Obviously we didn't do much besides get some groceries, but it was still nice to go out. It's also one of my partner's birthdays today, but they kinda live on the other side of the country and are busy with friends and family, so it's mostly just well wishes from me (not that we really do much more than chat with each other).

I don't think I've really realized until now just how much nothing I usually do. I really need to try and like actually do things even if those things are "play video games" or "read a book" or something, but it's hard to break out of that pattern, especially when ADHD makes it pretty hard to focus on anything. It's easy enough to say that you can/should do better, but it's hard to like, know how to do/be better.

I think I need to get better sleep too. Maybe go to bed earlier, maybe stop taking half an hour to go to bed.

Right after finishing this I realized I had forgotten the thing I actually spent most of my time on today, which was setting up a speedchoice Pokemon Emerald randomizer. I literally did not realize you could download a patch so most of my day was spent trying to compile the decompiled version (which I eventually managed to do, Werror is not something that should be on by default), but I haven't really touched it yet. I want to play one of the many, many "real" video games I have on my backlog first before I really mess around with it.